Wednesday, February 2, 2011

You have kids...... that you can see who you REALLY are.

Karaia said to me today, "Mom, I'm sorry you are having a bad day."

"Huh? I'm not having a bad day."

"Well you're acting like you are."


I guess all the pressure, that yes I put on myself, to obtain certain goals....and new goals....was showing a little too loudly today.

I feel my most creative (and let's be honest, have the most energy) during the middle of the day.

When the kids need food, or water, or heaven forbid, a mother.

The ironic thing about all this, is when I kneel by my bed at night 95% of my prayer focuses on what I can do to improve my mothering. Obviously, I am missing the boat.

I am fully convinced that if I get the priorities in order, i.e. being the Mother I'm meant to be, scripture reading, etc, then the creative side of me will be helped along.

No matter what time of day I finally get some time to myself.


Tobi said...

I love your writing! "showing a little too loudly today" You have a great way with well as everything else you do.

Chrissy said...

"or, heaven forbid, a mother." I love this line, I have felt this way so many times. It's good to know that I am not the only to struggle with this part of motherhood.

April Weeks said...

That was sweet and very intuitive of Karaia to say it that way.

mae said...

It makes me think of Dr. Suess, "remember that life's a great balancing act." I battle with it everyday between at-home work, housechores, and most importantly....the kids. I think you do a fabulous job :)