One week left of school.
WE can do it!
I'm having a lot of fun with the launch of my new line, Personality, for Modern Yardage. My in-laws sewed something with each of the four colorways and it's been wonderful to have their help!
I find myself saying, "Hey! That looks like real fabric!" and "Oh, that's cute....wait, I designed that!"
I've been looking at these designs for so long now as computer files, that when they are in print I keep forgetting they are mine. Funny.
I was short with the kids today. Lack of sleep. Extra things to do. Not enough hours in the day. I read all my friends blogs who are always making these great memories with their children. I need to be a lot better in this area. It's amazing how quickly the love I wake up feeling for them thins when the whining and disobedience begins. How does Heavenly Father do it?
I tried to start the day out with some scripture study and work on my Personal Progress,
but I was having trouble with the log in and then real life started. I
am just now remembering I never got back to it. Do you think I get an
"A" for effort?
Beckham had his last regular season baseball game tonight. Playoffs start tomorrow.
Today was Sanders' last day of preschool. They had a water party. He must have had fun because he came home and didn't take a breath during his 20 minute recount of the afternoon.
I feel like I am super behind on my business web site. I know how to make a site successful, but it takes a lot of time. I'm just not sure I want to spend that time, but then I think I am missing out on this great opportunity.
But my young family is a better opportunity and that is just the way I like it.
Showing posts with label fabric line. Show all posts
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Monday, June 3, 2013
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
T time and a dress
Mr. T doesn't have school for the next few days because of kindergarten testing. Everyone else has a regular schedule which means I get some one on one time with the middle child-sh. It doesn't happen nearly as much as I'd like.
I took him to the gym with me today. They have a little room for the kiddos to play in. It has a big window that the kids can see what we are doing and we can check on them. We were doing back squats today and were supposed to go as heavy as safely possible. The first set I did (we were supposed to do 4 in a set on the back squats because they were supposed to be very heavy, then jump into 12 front squats ahap with the barbell and then 25 squat box jumps. That would complete a set and we had to do 3 sets) I had 65 lbs on my back. But there was this other bar all set up that I could see out of the corner of my eye. It looked heavy. WAY too heavy for me. But I thought for my second set, why not. I'll just try and if I have to bail, I'll bail.
I stepped up to the rack, got under the bar, lifted it off it's rest with my back just below my shoulders, went down into my squat---below parallel---and found myself on my way back to standing. I did it! Then I finished the other 3!!!
When I grabbed Tennyson after I had finished I said, "Guess how much weight I just did a back squat with?!? 115 lbs!!!"
With HUGE eyes he said, " Wow.......was the bar all bendy on the ends? Because in cartoons, when it's really heavy, it's bendy on the ends."
Love that kid.
Then we went shopping for some new flip flops for him. Turns out we hit a good sale and ended up getting a bunch for everyone. He LOVED helping me chose just the right ones for each kid.
It was so much fun to be with him. We have our not so great moments together and it was just so nice to refill our cups with positive interaction.
My mom bought some of my fabric and made herself a dress. She made up the pattern and it is awesome!
Didn't she do a great job?! She even added pockets! And there is piping all over the place. Such great little details to have.
She ran right over as soon as she was finished. Such a fun memory to have together. She wants me to take more pictures when she has her hair done and make-up on. I will, but I think she looks pretty cute as is.
Thank you, Mom, you did an incredible job!
I took him to the gym with me today. They have a little room for the kiddos to play in. It has a big window that the kids can see what we are doing and we can check on them. We were doing back squats today and were supposed to go as heavy as safely possible. The first set I did (we were supposed to do 4 in a set on the back squats because they were supposed to be very heavy, then jump into 12 front squats ahap with the barbell and then 25 squat box jumps. That would complete a set and we had to do 3 sets) I had 65 lbs on my back. But there was this other bar all set up that I could see out of the corner of my eye. It looked heavy. WAY too heavy for me. But I thought for my second set, why not. I'll just try and if I have to bail, I'll bail.
I stepped up to the rack, got under the bar, lifted it off it's rest with my back just below my shoulders, went down into my squat---below parallel---and found myself on my way back to standing. I did it! Then I finished the other 3!!!
When I grabbed Tennyson after I had finished I said, "Guess how much weight I just did a back squat with?!? 115 lbs!!!"
With HUGE eyes he said, " Wow.......was the bar all bendy on the ends? Because in cartoons, when it's really heavy, it's bendy on the ends."
Love that kid.
Then we went shopping for some new flip flops for him. Turns out we hit a good sale and ended up getting a bunch for everyone. He LOVED helping me chose just the right ones for each kid.
It was so much fun to be with him. We have our not so great moments together and it was just so nice to refill our cups with positive interaction.
My mom bought some of my fabric and made herself a dress. She made up the pattern and it is awesome!
Didn't she do a great job?! She even added pockets! And there is piping all over the place. Such great little details to have.
She ran right over as soon as she was finished. Such a fun memory to have together. She wants me to take more pictures when she has her hair done and make-up on. I will, but I think she looks pretty cute as is.
Thank you, Mom, you did an incredible job!
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Passions
I was lucky enough to go shopping at a local boutique with my mom this morning. We stumbled across the perfect Mother's Day gift for Candace.
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| Garden Labels |
I had to rush them right over to her house because the boutique is near her home and I was afraid she would find them and buy them for herself if I waited until Mother's Day to give them to her :) She grew up on a Farm in Bear River. Her home is beautifully decorate and elegant, but she is the first one to admit that she's never gotten the farm life out of her. We wouldn't ever want her to! She has a great green thumb and grows a huge garden every year. These will be perfect!
Anybody who has spent any amount of time around Sanders in his natural habitat has met his best friend, Froggy Blanket. This beloved bit of fabric goes everywhere we will let him take it. It's rather endearing.
My mom and Candace were able to help cheer the kids on in soccer today. I can't tell you how much I appreciate these women help me raise my children. Candace cheered Tennyson on which meant I finally got to see Karaia play! She did great!
After wards Kevin was taking Beckham to go meet Beckham's favorite radio personalities at a pizza place. (More on that tomorrow). So I took the other three out to dinner. This was the first sit down restaurant experience that I have ever truly enjoyed with my children. They were wonderful!
I also got strike offs for my next line today! While the colors still need adjusting and that feels like a huge mountain to climb. I'm excited to see what kinds of adventures this line brings.
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Early and Late
I got Karaia's dress completed at 2pm yesterday. Hooray!
Sadly, I was up until 4am this morning finishing the boy's ties. Kevin and I doubled with our friends in the evening and then the sewing gods were not on my side last night. I am exhausted, but everything looked so wonderful today.
I would do the ties differently next time. They were a little too wide under the collar and the little boy's were way, WAY too short. There was barely any tail left after we tied it the correct length. Ah well, next time will be better!
Now pictures!
Sadly, I was up until 4am this morning finishing the boy's ties. Kevin and I doubled with our friends in the evening and then the sewing gods were not on my side last night. I am exhausted, but everything looked so wonderful today.
I would do the ties differently next time. They were a little too wide under the collar and the little boy's were way, WAY too short. There was barely any tail left after we tied it the correct length. Ah well, next time will be better!
Now pictures!
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| See how short the end of the tie is on Sanders' tie. Tennyson's is the same. |
Saturday, March 30, 2013
First project
I'm sewing my first project with the Mary Jencks line. Karaia's Easter dress!
Considering I have one full day left before Easter and I only need to add one more bottom section and sleeves I'm going to call myself ahead of the game.
Although the zipper about did me in!
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Down but not out
I hurt my back yesterday. Nothing major, but the kind of thing that makes you move slower, try and bend a WHOLE lot less, and only time will heal.
My mom came over to sort through all the lose game and puzzle pieces she found when she cleaned the playroom. My back gave me a good excuse to just be with her as we put together puzzle after puzzle to see if we had whole puzzles. Turns out, we mostly did not.
I also ordered fabric from my line to make Karaia's Easter dress and picked up half of Danica's order that she will use to make dresses for her girls. She's hoping for Easter...but there are three of them, so, that's a big project!
I let Karaia pick whatever prints she wanted. We have different tastes, and she knows that, so she was so concerned she would hurt my feeling and kept saying things like, "I like that one, but for meeee, I mean it's an awesome design, but for meee I think I like this one." I tried to tell her I liked all the prints so I really truly did not care what she chose. She's a sweet girl.
I can't wait to cut into that fabric and make it into something useful!!!
My mom came over to sort through all the lose game and puzzle pieces she found when she cleaned the playroom. My back gave me a good excuse to just be with her as we put together puzzle after puzzle to see if we had whole puzzles. Turns out, we mostly did not.
I also ordered fabric from my line to make Karaia's Easter dress and picked up half of Danica's order that she will use to make dresses for her girls. She's hoping for Easter...but there are three of them, so, that's a big project!
I let Karaia pick whatever prints she wanted. We have different tastes, and she knows that, so she was so concerned she would hurt my feeling and kept saying things like, "I like that one, but for meeee, I mean it's an awesome design, but for meee I think I like this one." I tried to tell her I liked all the prints so I really truly did not care what she chose. She's a sweet girl.
I can't wait to cut into that fabric and make it into something useful!!!
Monday, January 21, 2013
Modern Yardage Media Launch
We launched today! Well, our soft launch/media launch. By we I mean Modern Yardage,
the fabric manufacturing company I've been alluding to for months.
It still seems so unreal. We will be selling fabric on Feb. 4. Oh, I hope it is a success. So many hours and dreams and hopes and prayers and hard work and big scary, crazy, exciting leaps are behind this company.
I feel like I should be feeling more. I do feel a little butterfly-ish. I'm excited and nervous and there is still so very much to do. Truthfully, I am just so humbled this is part of my little life that I don't quite dare to believe it.
Speaking of believing, thank you for believing in me and supporting me. Thank you for coming to this space day after day to check in and at time say, "Hi". I love it when you do. Thank you for cheering me on during the exciting bits and for keeping me standing and moving forward during the scenes that are never fun, but that keep the journey interesting. Dreams are never accomplished alone. It's a group effort. It's better that way.
Thank you!
Oh and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH people are going to be able to by my fabric and hopefully be inspired to create their own beautiful things that inspire others. It's a very cool cycle to be part of. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
the fabric manufacturing company I've been alluding to for months.
It still seems so unreal. We will be selling fabric on Feb. 4. Oh, I hope it is a success. So many hours and dreams and hopes and prayers and hard work and big scary, crazy, exciting leaps are behind this company.
I feel like I should be feeling more. I do feel a little butterfly-ish. I'm excited and nervous and there is still so very much to do. Truthfully, I am just so humbled this is part of my little life that I don't quite dare to believe it.
Speaking of believing, thank you for believing in me and supporting me. Thank you for coming to this space day after day to check in and at time say, "Hi". I love it when you do. Thank you for cheering me on during the exciting bits and for keeping me standing and moving forward during the scenes that are never fun, but that keep the journey interesting. Dreams are never accomplished alone. It's a group effort. It's better that way.
Thank you!
Oh and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH people are going to be able to by my fabric and hopefully be inspired to create their own beautiful things that inspire others. It's a very cool cycle to be part of. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Signing THE contract
It happened.
I am talking about IT !
Today, on this very normal day in October, I signed a contract agreeing to let some very nice people use my designs on fabric! I am officially a fabric designer!
I seriously can't believed I just typed that and it's not even an exaggeration! Or an imagination. Or a dream! It's reality. My reality no less.
Wow.
It makes me tear up with joy.
I can't spill who it is with yet, but I promise you are going to want to start following me because things are going to start moving quickly!
OK, here's the back story:
I work for Pick Your Plum and a new sister company called Downtown Tape. DTT just launched at the beginning of August and hit the ground running. By the end of August I was drowning in my work load. We had been asked to be part of Scrapbook USA's expo when we were one week old and I had the great opportunity to plan the booth and get everything organized. With the expo came a couple of TV slots, that I was lucky enough to be part of, and all of the behind the scenes prep work you would imagine. Thankfully, my sister, Annie, was in on everything with me. She is one to have on your team if you want to get things done!
ANYWAY, back to the drowning feeling. There were just too many nights I would go to sleep realizing my children and I had been in the same house together ALL day and I had not really seen them. That was not OK. They weren't going to be little forever. I wasn't working because I have to. My jobs are hobbies. I enjoy them. I don't make much money, but that isn't why I'm doing it. One day I woke up and it was ALL I was doing. Not cool.
So I decided that DTT had to go. That was a hard, hard, HARD decision to walk away from something that is so successful that you've been with from the beginning. Hard! By the time the expo rolled around at the end of September, even though I knew I had made the right decision, I finally felt it. I was fine walking away. I was excited to put that energy toward my kids.
The first day of the expo, September 28th, we were busy! We had a small 10 x 10 space and for the first 4 hours had a minimum of 20 women in that space with us all buying our washi tape . It was a blast! I remember hearing my phone ring a couple of times, but we were so busy I did not have one second to even look at it.
After the biggest rush ended I glanced at my phone. I saw one number I didn't recognize and then Kevin's. I called Kevin and he asked if I'd gotten a call from a girl I knew of, but had never met. I told him I didn't know because I hadn't had much time to be with my phone. He went on to explain that someone I have many mutual friends with, but had yet to personally meet, had been following my blog. Not only had she been following my blog, but she was starting her own fabric manufacturing company and she wanted to talk....to me....about my designs.
Hold. the. phone!
I remember being in shock. I didn't have time to really process what I had just been told. The craziness of the booth demanded my attention. For the next two days I held it in my heart until I could really let it soak in.
From there we talked. New company. Not launched yet. New business model. LOVE your designs. We are so excited by them. We would like you to be a part of this. And my favorite quote from all of this
"Well, if people are ever critical of you being so open with your dreams and if they ever tell you not to be too public... you can ignore them. If you hadn't been so gushingly excited about your goal to design fabric, I would have never known you were interested or even trying. So I am anxious to see where this takes us."
Chills. For sure.
Until today. Less than one month, a mere 27 days, from the first call. The signing of a contract!!!!!!!!!! After I signed and they signed I squealed, "YAY!!! Can we hug?"
"Ummm....sure...if you want to...I guess..." ( It was a man. I'm pretty sure I terrified him)
"Oh GOOD! 'Cause I'm a hugger!"
That's right I sucked him right out of business world straight into Emilie-land. In my defense, we were in my home. There's a certain level of realness I like to maintain when I am home. My real self hugs people when she's happy. I told him to get used to it. Again....terrified him. ;)
Do I think that it's a coincidence that on the day that I had finally, truly made peace with letting go of something that was taking me away from my family I got THE call. The call I have been working towards for three years. A call that came out of the blue, unsolicited, and gifted to me.
No. I absolutely do not.
When I told Annie about the call she made a good observation that I could just be possibly taking one thing off my plate only to fill it with something else and thus my plate would be too full once again.
But it hasn't felt that way. Thankfully, it hasn't been that way either.
What it has felt like is a blessing for doing a hard thing. For walking away from something really good to make room for something even better. To allow my Heavenly Father to take me down the road HE needs me to go. So I can be in the places I can do the best good. Make the most difference. Be who He sent me to be.
And do you know what? I have made more time for my kids. I have stopped in the middle of MY agenda to just be with them in whatever adventure they have created from that day. I have not had one. single. sleepless. night because I felt regret from not spending the time with them they deserve. Not one. It feels really good.
That's HUGE for me. That used to be an every night event I took part in.
I haven't had a moment of mommy guilt because I am also chasing BIG dreams. I am being the mom I want to be. Of course I am not perfect. That just keeps it interesting ;) But I am better. I am more intentional. I am soaking in all their little soul's goodness and tucking it away in my heart so I can snuggle with it when they are too old to be snuggled.
So the phone call was a gift, in more ways than I even realized until now. Letting DTT go was a gift. Trusting that He knew more than me is always a gift. I am SO excited to start this new part of the journey. I still cannot believe the waiting is over!
It's a good day, my friends. An extraordinarily good day!
If I could be so bold to ask for even more awesomeness today, if you read this, would you leave me a little comment below. I print this blog off as a book and I want to document every piece of this part of the journey and remember everyone who celebrated with me!
Thank you!
I am talking about IT !
Today, on this very normal day in October, I signed a contract agreeing to let some very nice people use my designs on fabric! I am officially a fabric designer!
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| PS don't you LOVE the desk I refinished?!?!! Sigh. It makes me super happy. |
I seriously can't believed I just typed that and it's not even an exaggeration! Or an imagination. Or a dream! It's reality. My reality no less.
Wow.
It makes me tear up with joy.
I can't spill who it is with yet, but I promise you are going to want to start following me because things are going to start moving quickly!
OK, here's the back story:
I work for Pick Your Plum and a new sister company called Downtown Tape. DTT just launched at the beginning of August and hit the ground running. By the end of August I was drowning in my work load. We had been asked to be part of Scrapbook USA's expo when we were one week old and I had the great opportunity to plan the booth and get everything organized. With the expo came a couple of TV slots, that I was lucky enough to be part of, and all of the behind the scenes prep work you would imagine. Thankfully, my sister, Annie, was in on everything with me. She is one to have on your team if you want to get things done!
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| Me and Annie after putting together the booth all day. Don't judge. At the time, we were hilarious. Promise. |
ANYWAY, back to the drowning feeling. There were just too many nights I would go to sleep realizing my children and I had been in the same house together ALL day and I had not really seen them. That was not OK. They weren't going to be little forever. I wasn't working because I have to. My jobs are hobbies. I enjoy them. I don't make much money, but that isn't why I'm doing it. One day I woke up and it was ALL I was doing. Not cool.
So I decided that DTT had to go. That was a hard, hard, HARD decision to walk away from something that is so successful that you've been with from the beginning. Hard! By the time the expo rolled around at the end of September, even though I knew I had made the right decision, I finally felt it. I was fine walking away. I was excited to put that energy toward my kids.
The first day of the expo, September 28th, we were busy! We had a small 10 x 10 space and for the first 4 hours had a minimum of 20 women in that space with us all buying our washi tape . It was a blast! I remember hearing my phone ring a couple of times, but we were so busy I did not have one second to even look at it.
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| It's cute right! |
After the biggest rush ended I glanced at my phone. I saw one number I didn't recognize and then Kevin's. I called Kevin and he asked if I'd gotten a call from a girl I knew of, but had never met. I told him I didn't know because I hadn't had much time to be with my phone. He went on to explain that someone I have many mutual friends with, but had yet to personally meet, had been following my blog. Not only had she been following my blog, but she was starting her own fabric manufacturing company and she wanted to talk....to me....about my designs.
Hold. the. phone!
I remember being in shock. I didn't have time to really process what I had just been told. The craziness of the booth demanded my attention. For the next two days I held it in my heart until I could really let it soak in.
From there we talked. New company. Not launched yet. New business model. LOVE your designs. We are so excited by them. We would like you to be a part of this. And my favorite quote from all of this
"Well, if people are ever critical of you being so open with your dreams and if they ever tell you not to be too public... you can ignore them. If you hadn't been so gushingly excited about your goal to design fabric, I would have never known you were interested or even trying. So I am anxious to see where this takes us."
Chills. For sure.
Until today. Less than one month, a mere 27 days, from the first call. The signing of a contract!!!!!!!!!! After I signed and they signed I squealed, "YAY!!! Can we hug?"
"Ummm....sure...if you want to...I guess..." ( It was a man. I'm pretty sure I terrified him)
"Oh GOOD! 'Cause I'm a hugger!"
That's right I sucked him right out of business world straight into Emilie-land. In my defense, we were in my home. There's a certain level of realness I like to maintain when I am home. My real self hugs people when she's happy. I told him to get used to it. Again....terrified him. ;)
Do I think that it's a coincidence that on the day that I had finally, truly made peace with letting go of something that was taking me away from my family I got THE call. The call I have been working towards for three years. A call that came out of the blue, unsolicited, and gifted to me.
No. I absolutely do not.
When I told Annie about the call she made a good observation that I could just be possibly taking one thing off my plate only to fill it with something else and thus my plate would be too full once again.
But it hasn't felt that way. Thankfully, it hasn't been that way either.
What it has felt like is a blessing for doing a hard thing. For walking away from something really good to make room for something even better. To allow my Heavenly Father to take me down the road HE needs me to go. So I can be in the places I can do the best good. Make the most difference. Be who He sent me to be.
And do you know what? I have made more time for my kids. I have stopped in the middle of MY agenda to just be with them in whatever adventure they have created from that day. I have not had one. single. sleepless. night because I felt regret from not spending the time with them they deserve. Not one. It feels really good.
That's HUGE for me. That used to be an every night event I took part in.
I haven't had a moment of mommy guilt because I am also chasing BIG dreams. I am being the mom I want to be. Of course I am not perfect. That just keeps it interesting ;) But I am better. I am more intentional. I am soaking in all their little soul's goodness and tucking it away in my heart so I can snuggle with it when they are too old to be snuggled.
So the phone call was a gift, in more ways than I even realized until now. Letting DTT go was a gift. Trusting that He knew more than me is always a gift. I am SO excited to start this new part of the journey. I still cannot believe the waiting is over!
It's a good day, my friends. An extraordinarily good day!
If I could be so bold to ask for even more awesomeness today, if you read this, would you leave me a little comment below. I print this blog off as a book and I want to document every piece of this part of the journey and remember everyone who celebrated with me!
Thank you!
Monday, May 2, 2011
Still sick
Tennyson is still sick. But he's still peeing. So that's good. He threw up a few more times today and slept a combined total of 7 hours today only to be complete zonked out by 7:30 tonight.
Sanders also took two naps today. That was wonderful because I was a walking zombie! Sanders didn't do much today either. He is losing liquid as well, but from the other end. Sigh.
I also was reminded how awesome my neighborhood and friends are. I had SO many offers for dinner and taking care of healthy kids so I could sleep, and so much more. It's hard but nice to be on the receiving end of service. It always reminds me how much I really enjoy giving service, especially when I have such a personal reminder, like today, at how much it it can change a persons day.
Only 3 more sleeps until Kev gets home. Only 11 more days until Market. I feel slightly, OK maybe a smidge more than slightly, anxious that I will get everything done.
11 days and I'll find out which cross road I will be taking. The road to debuting my own line in the Fall or the road where I try even harder at Fall market but this time armed with experience. Either one I feel like will be further than I am right now. Both have such amazing potential. I'm excited to see where I belong!
Sanders also took two naps today. That was wonderful because I was a walking zombie! Sanders didn't do much today either. He is losing liquid as well, but from the other end. Sigh.
I also was reminded how awesome my neighborhood and friends are. I had SO many offers for dinner and taking care of healthy kids so I could sleep, and so much more. It's hard but nice to be on the receiving end of service. It always reminds me how much I really enjoy giving service, especially when I have such a personal reminder, like today, at how much it it can change a persons day.
Only 3 more sleeps until Kev gets home. Only 11 more days until Market. I feel slightly, OK maybe a smidge more than slightly, anxious that I will get everything done.
11 days and I'll find out which cross road I will be taking. The road to debuting my own line in the Fall or the road where I try even harder at Fall market but this time armed with experience. Either one I feel like will be further than I am right now. Both have such amazing potential. I'm excited to see where I belong!
Thursday, April 14, 2011
When you know you're obsessed
You may remember the post I did on how Katy Perry's Fireworks song effects me. It's a very obvious, you-can-do-anything! kind of a song.
I recently discovered just HOW deep my thought process is dominated by my big dream. Listening to the radio a Micheal Buble song came on. A song that I have heard multiple times before now, but this time I found a new meaning in all the words. All of the sudden he wasn't singing about an eternal mate, Micheal was crooning about my future relationship with a fabric manufacturer! He articulated this whole journey, with it's ups and downs, but always feeling that this relationship is just around the corner and while I don't have it yet, it's coming and it's going to be life changing in a good way.
Well, just read for yourself and see if you don't agree.
I recently discovered just HOW deep my thought process is dominated by my big dream. Listening to the radio a Micheal Buble song came on. A song that I have heard multiple times before now, but this time I found a new meaning in all the words. All of the sudden he wasn't singing about an eternal mate, Micheal was crooning about my future relationship with a fabric manufacturer! He articulated this whole journey, with it's ups and downs, but always feeling that this relationship is just around the corner and while I don't have it yet, it's coming and it's going to be life changing in a good way.
Well, just read for yourself and see if you don't agree.
I'm not surprised.
Not everything lasts.
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in.
I talk myself out. (How many posts have I written like this)
I get all worked up, then I let myself down.
I tried so very hard not to lose it.
I came up with a million excuses.
I thought I thought of every possibility.
And I know someday that it'll all turn out. (I do, I really do!)
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out. (Um...OBVIOUSLY)
And promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get. ( You have no idea)
I just haven't met you yet.
I might have to wait.
I'll never give up. (No, no I won't!)
I guess it's half timing, (These two lines completely relate to how I'm feeling)
And the other half's luck.
Wherever you are.
Whenever it's right. (This is the one I have to keep reminding myself of)
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life.
And I know that we can be so amazing.
And baby your love is gonna change me.
And now I can see every possibility.
They say all's fair.
In love and war.
But I won't need to fight it.
We'll get it right and,
We'll be united.
I just haven't met you yet.
Ohh, promise you, kid, to give so much than I get.
I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet.....but hopefully soon!
Not everything lasts.
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in.
I talk myself out. (How many posts have I written like this)
I get all worked up, then I let myself down.
I tried so very hard not to lose it.
I came up with a million excuses.
I thought I thought of every possibility.
And I know someday that it'll all turn out. (I do, I really do!)
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out. (Um...OBVIOUSLY)
And promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get. ( You have no idea)
I just haven't met you yet.
I might have to wait.
I'll never give up. (No, no I won't!)
I guess it's half timing, (These two lines completely relate to how I'm feeling)
And the other half's luck.
Wherever you are.
Whenever it's right. (This is the one I have to keep reminding myself of)
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life.
And I know that we can be so amazing.
And baby your love is gonna change me.
And now I can see every possibility.
They say all's fair.
In love and war.
But I won't need to fight it.
We'll get it right and,
We'll be united.
I just haven't met you yet.
Ohh, promise you, kid, to give so much than I get.
I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet.....but hopefully soon!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Building
I've noticed my anxiety slowly building all day.
Market is coming closer and there is still SO much to be done and learned.
It feel like when I was in college and finals where just around the corner.
If I sleep for any amount of time in the next 30 days (That's IT, people. Only 30 more days until Market) it will be a miracle.
Market is coming closer and there is still SO much to be done and learned.
It feel like when I was in college and finals where just around the corner.
If I sleep for any amount of time in the next 30 days (That's IT, people. Only 30 more days until Market) it will be a miracle.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Break through
Remember yesterday how I had a little pity party and then slowly, cautiously, dried my tears and vowed to continue onward?
Are you familiar with the saying, "It's always darkest before the dawn" ?
Yesterday was the darkest. As I said, I felt less than up to the task I had placed before me. I woke up today with a new resolve and a renewed conviction.
And it happened.
I have been working on this ONE design for over a month now. The same one. It has changed and morphed and grown so quickly and so slowly. But today, with a chorus of angels encouraging me from behind, it finally came together.
To say I am grateful doesn't even come close to expressing the feelings I have. I have felt guided and directed. Pushed and pulled. Carried and walked beside. Yes, this is only fabric design. But for me it's been a journey of self discovery. Of recognizing and accepting talents, without apologies for trying to cultivate and grow them.
It's OK to have talents. And it's OK if you know what your talents are. And it's OK if you are proud of your talents. It's NOT OK to be proud because you have a talent, but you can delight in your talents.
They are gifts from our Heavenly Father. Given to us so we may experience the power of creating something from nothing. To create beauty and light around us. In whatever form. To fail to recognize and cultivate your talents is, I now know, an ungrateful act.
I am grateful for this lesson. It was a hard one for me to learn. There is a fine line between a mind set of gratitude, which includes acknowledging and using what has been given you, and being prideful, which is feeling entitled to what you have been given and feeling better than others because of it.
I was so afraid of even getting close to the prideful line that I struggled to have a true attitude of gratitude. It's hard to say, "yes, I have been given that talent and I have worked on becoming good at it!" For me I never want it to come across as, "yes, I am better than you at that!" So to even say I'm good, terrified me. But how can you be grateful if you don't even acknowledge that you have been given something?
And that is part of this journey. Accepting the light and love my Father in Heaven has provided to help me become who He needs me to be.
And it's OK to dream big. Nobody has the corner market on big dreams. They are available to anyone. You just have to find the courage to take that first step.
Are you familiar with the saying, "It's always darkest before the dawn" ?
Yesterday was the darkest. As I said, I felt less than up to the task I had placed before me. I woke up today with a new resolve and a renewed conviction.
And it happened.
I have been working on this ONE design for over a month now. The same one. It has changed and morphed and grown so quickly and so slowly. But today, with a chorus of angels encouraging me from behind, it finally came together.
To say I am grateful doesn't even come close to expressing the feelings I have. I have felt guided and directed. Pushed and pulled. Carried and walked beside. Yes, this is only fabric design. But for me it's been a journey of self discovery. Of recognizing and accepting talents, without apologies for trying to cultivate and grow them.
It's OK to have talents. And it's OK if you know what your talents are. And it's OK if you are proud of your talents. It's NOT OK to be proud because you have a talent, but you can delight in your talents.
They are gifts from our Heavenly Father. Given to us so we may experience the power of creating something from nothing. To create beauty and light around us. In whatever form. To fail to recognize and cultivate your talents is, I now know, an ungrateful act.
I am grateful for this lesson. It was a hard one for me to learn. There is a fine line between a mind set of gratitude, which includes acknowledging and using what has been given you, and being prideful, which is feeling entitled to what you have been given and feeling better than others because of it.
I was so afraid of even getting close to the prideful line that I struggled to have a true attitude of gratitude. It's hard to say, "yes, I have been given that talent and I have worked on becoming good at it!" For me I never want it to come across as, "yes, I am better than you at that!" So to even say I'm good, terrified me. But how can you be grateful if you don't even acknowledge that you have been given something?
And that is part of this journey. Accepting the light and love my Father in Heaven has provided to help me become who He needs me to be.
And it's OK to dream big. Nobody has the corner market on big dreams. They are available to anyone. You just have to find the courage to take that first step.
Monday, March 28, 2011
You can't compare
I found myself drooling over Amy Butler's new fabric line, Soul Blossoms. I did not care for Ms. Butler's last line, Love, but Soul Blossoms? I can not stop thinking about it!
The timing of my discovery was a bit unfortunate as I was taking a brief brake from designing my own fabric line by surfing the web. Talk about intimidation! Not only that, but I found myself comparing her 9th line to my yet-to-be-born-line. I know better than to compare my work in progress to someones best work, but I did it anyway.
I felt SO unqualified to even have such a dream that would put my talent anywhere near the same industry as hers.
Then my best friend called. She is the best! I had just sent her some of my designs....before I had seen the Soul Blossom line....and she called to tell me she and just barely opened them and said, "Ooooooo! Pretty!"
Be. still. my. soul.
I expressed to her my feelings of inadequacy and she, as always, helped me game plan a few directions I can take my designs to get closer to the feeling I want them to convey.
So I now feel hopeful, talented enough to have big dreams, and excited to work my little tail off to make them come true.
I don't want to copy Amy Butler. She is incredible and a great inspiration. But the world already has one of her. What they don't have is a me and I happen to think that there is just enough room for the both of us......at least I hope so anyway.
The timing of my discovery was a bit unfortunate as I was taking a brief brake from designing my own fabric line by surfing the web. Talk about intimidation! Not only that, but I found myself comparing her 9th line to my yet-to-be-born-line. I know better than to compare my work in progress to someones best work, but I did it anyway.
I felt SO unqualified to even have such a dream that would put my talent anywhere near the same industry as hers.
Then my best friend called. She is the best! I had just sent her some of my designs....before I had seen the Soul Blossom line....and she called to tell me she and just barely opened them and said, "Ooooooo! Pretty!"
Be. still. my. soul.
I expressed to her my feelings of inadequacy and she, as always, helped me game plan a few directions I can take my designs to get closer to the feeling I want them to convey.
So I now feel hopeful, talented enough to have big dreams, and excited to work my little tail off to make them come true.
I don't want to copy Amy Butler. She is incredible and a great inspiration. But the world already has one of her. What they don't have is a me and I happen to think that there is just enough room for the both of us......at least I hope so anyway.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
A start
Today I finally did it. I put my art work on paper.
For some reason using my hands instead of a computer program to create a design for fabric felt more personal, more part of me. And it was terrifying. All the scarier to potentially hear, "Not a right fit."
It was time to get over the fear. It was a huge challenge not to be able to switch out the colors with just a click. I felt good to finally being productive on the this adventure. I draw and design nearly all day and all night in my head. Finally, something I don't have to keep thinking about and I can look...with my eyes...not just my mind's eye.
Let's hope later on this year you'll be able to look at it too. :)
For some reason using my hands instead of a computer program to create a design for fabric felt more personal, more part of me. And it was terrifying. All the scarier to potentially hear, "Not a right fit."
It was time to get over the fear. It was a huge challenge not to be able to switch out the colors with just a click. I felt good to finally being productive on the this adventure. I draw and design nearly all day and all night in my head. Finally, something I don't have to keep thinking about and I can look...with my eyes...not just my mind's eye.
Let's hope later on this year you'll be able to look at it too. :)
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Hope
We went to Grandma Cathy's Christmas party today.
Yes, I am aware that it is near the end of January, but we wanted to wait for Jim to come home.
I designed and sewed a craft bag for Grandma. Unfortunately, I left it to such last minute that I didn't have time to take any pictures. I think it turned out lovely and I hope she uses it a lot.
I also made princess capes for the three older cousins and an I Spy bag for Kasidy.
While at the party my sister-in-law, Lyndi (Hi Lyndi!), gave me an article that she had ripped out of a magazine about a fabric designer....just because she was thinking of me. *smile* The fabric designer interviewed was Anna Maria Horner. One of my all time favorite designers.
As I read the article my heart literally skipped a beat when I read that it took Anna Maria Horner SEVEN years before she landed a contract with a manufacturer. I couldn't believe it! Anna Maria Horner (yes, I usually say her WHOLE name when referring to her) is amazingly talented and highly successful. If manufacturers didn't recognize her potential right off then I feel like there is hope. Maybe manufactures just haven't realized my potential yet. I have to believe that I have it, or else what am I doing?
I hope it doesn't take seven years. But remember, I have given myself ten. So if it's seven then I'll just feel blessed I had three years to spare.
Yes, I am aware that it is near the end of January, but we wanted to wait for Jim to come home.
I designed and sewed a craft bag for Grandma. Unfortunately, I left it to such last minute that I didn't have time to take any pictures. I think it turned out lovely and I hope she uses it a lot.
I also made princess capes for the three older cousins and an I Spy bag for Kasidy.
While at the party my sister-in-law, Lyndi (Hi Lyndi!), gave me an article that she had ripped out of a magazine about a fabric designer....just because she was thinking of me. *smile* The fabric designer interviewed was Anna Maria Horner. One of my all time favorite designers.
As I read the article my heart literally skipped a beat when I read that it took Anna Maria Horner SEVEN years before she landed a contract with a manufacturer. I couldn't believe it! Anna Maria Horner (yes, I usually say her WHOLE name when referring to her) is amazingly talented and highly successful. If manufacturers didn't recognize her potential right off then I feel like there is hope. Maybe manufactures just haven't realized my potential yet. I have to believe that I have it, or else what am I doing?
I hope it doesn't take seven years. But remember, I have given myself ten. So if it's seven then I'll just feel blessed I had three years to spare.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Fireworks
I try really hard not to listen to Katy Perry songs. For a number of reasons. But the biggest reason is that they are so addicting to me. I kind of love them. However, they, more often than not, don't have lyrics I agree with or have lyrics that are very suggestive. Either way, when one of her songs comes on I am quick to change the station. Sadly, it's a hard choice, to listen or not to listen. For the most part I am able to make the right choice.
That being said, I am in love withKaty Perry 's song "Fireworks". Finally, one of her songs with lyrics I can let my kids listen to. The lyrics speak to the place I feel like I am in on my journey of fabric design.
As a result, I cannot help but cry when this song comes on. I turn it up full blast and cry and dream and cry some more. I'm sure my kids think I am loony tunes seeing that the only time I have time to listen to music right now is in the car during my chauffeuring duties. I do try to keep the tears to a minimum. Lest the children feel like they need to call their grandmas to rescue them.
I realize that is so cheesy, or maybe we could say passionate? But it perfectly describes how I feel most days. That there is this light, these fireworks, just waiting to explode. All they need is a little ignition. A little recognition.
For now I suppose I am just setting up the show.
Someday, my friends, someday.
That being said, I am in love with
Maybe the reason why allthe doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it's time you know
You just gotta ignite the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the Fourth of July
'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "ah, ah, ah!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go boom boom boom, make em brighter then the moon moon moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time you let it flew
As a result, I cannot help but cry when this song comes on. I turn it up full blast and cry and dream and cry some more. I'm sure my kids think I am loony tunes seeing that the only time I have time to listen to music right now is in the car during my chauffeuring duties. I do try to keep the tears to a minimum. Lest the children feel like they need to call their grandmas to rescue them.
I realize that is so cheesy, or maybe we could say passionate? But it perfectly describes how I feel most days. That there is this light, these fireworks, just waiting to explode. All they need is a little ignition. A little recognition.
For now I suppose I am just setting up the show.
Someday, my friends, someday.
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