I have been feeling like I have been
I was lamenting this fact to my hairdresser and second guessing decisions I had made. She said, "But wouldn't it be awful to be miserable doing something you're so passionate about?"
It was like the clouds parted and the sun peaked out. It's true. When it happens, and I truly believe that it will happen, maybe 8 years from now, but it will happen, I want to be so very happy doing what brings me so much joy. I need to trust that the Lord's timeline is so much better than mine. There's no embarrassment in that. I much further than I was before Market. That can definitely be defined as a success.
The other moment of clarity came during dinner time. We were all laughing about something and I just stopped and looked at my amazing family and thought, "If this is my greatest success then I am already living the dream." I had been feeling happiness, but not contentment because of some piece of paper that would ensure that my designs would be printed. But tonight, during the crazy time of dinner, the contentment came.....without any legal documents.
For that I am very grateful.