Kevin has been traveling a lot this year. If I add it all up it comes roughly to a month and an half of him being gone this year, so far.
Surprisingly, I am OK with this.
Just before Beckham turned one, Kevin started his Masters program demanding he be gone 3 nights a week. I tell you what, I was a MESS those two years. The nights he didn't come home until 10:30 pm would send me into panic mode for most of the day, but especially at night. I did get really in shape, however, because I would bundle the kids up in the morning and go for an hour walk and then again during the time the Daddy usually came home. I couldn't stand to be in the house knowing he wasn't going to come home right then.
But now, he is gone for a week and I can take the kids, all of them to the store or to get Snow cones without so much as breaking a sweat.
Don't get me wrong, having him home is what I would choose, but I'm delighted to learn I don't fall apart anymore.
Something about having four kids really agrees with me. I am less stressed and have more Patience than I have with any other number of children. Weird, but true. I am more than content, I am joyful.
I am experiencing, and thankfully recognizing, that I now truly understand "feel the measure of your creation and find joy in your posterity"
Does that mean I never get frustrated, of course not. I'm sure I've blogged enough to prove it. But I am able to find the Joy easier and quicker.
Its good to be a mom. The best thing I've ever done with my life and I'm happy I know it!
7 comments:
Sounds like you've found the perfect number. :) Three works for me, if I can just survive the "terrible threes" two more times...
So funny how adding another kid changed your stress level for the better. It's always nice to have those moments when you really love doing what you're doing and enjoy the journey.
I think the key to conquering kid stress is to be comfortable in your own home and to be able to accept the fact that you may not leave or get anything done, and that, that's OKAY.
I haven't gotten there yet... guess I haven't reached my magic number yet. :)
Apparently I haven't hit my number of kids yet because Chad has been out of town a lot and I do ok but I am a little more stressed. Interesting I hope that if and when I have more kids that I am able to find this balance.
Side note I think you should write a book. You write really well.
It gives me JOY to read how you feel about being a mother, but I gotta tell ya, it only gets more joyful as you watch your children grow up and be happy and have children. Then your joy is doubled and tripled!
I'm jealous... :( ...and in awe of your optimism.
I hope five will do for me what four has done for you. I'll hold on to that shred of hope.
I'm so glad you recognize the joy in your life! I think we lose sight of what really makes us happy sometimes. So good for you!
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