I have been extremely busy with work. Way more than I'd like to be. However, because of that I have come to learn a few things about myself.
1. I actually quite enjoy "just" being a mom. (Put the rotten tomatoes down. I KNOW being a mom is the best, but you know what I mean)
For so long, and with firm heavenly direction, I have been focused on goals in addition to fine tuning my motherhood role. These goals have be passionately fueled and inspired from a place I can't even accurately describe. They have been good goals and have served in helping me grow into the person, the mom, the friend, the sister, the daughter, the wife I was sent to become. The journey has afforded me a lot of growth I assumed I would only find with the achievement of the goal. Turns out I was wrong.
That doesn't mean I have given up on my goals. Not a chance. It just means it doesn't ache that I'm not there yet. I just means I wish life would slow down a bit so I can enjoy my small children more and I know reaching my goal will only increase the speed. I love my life. Right now. As it is. I feel like I might be missing too much of my kid's time with me and that scares me. I don't want any regrets about this life. I'm not talking about mistakes because I can guarantee I have a running dialog with my Heavenly Father most of the day repenting for choices I make. Regrets are different. Regrets are avoidable if you put your very best self forward.
2. I seriously lack skills in multitasking well. Sure I can multitask, but it's not pretty.
3. I'm OK being good at what I'm good at and you being good at what you're good at. That being said, I think there is always room for improvement. I purposely surround myself with people who have a strength that is my weakness. Not to put myself down, but to give myself the best possible chance of changing the weakness to a asset.
Finally, I have a really good life. It's not glamorous. We aren't wealthy. But we have what is important and I am content and happy. For that I find the words within my knowledge to be severely lacking to perfectly capture the depth of gratitude I feel.